Time passed, my calender was full, I managed to find other things to do - totally got over my internet addiction for which I would pride myself in. But meanwhile what couldnt let go of, was reading you guys, and time and again the urge to make myself heard - judged or unjudged - came back. Those times I used to ask myself "Is it gonna be worth it ?", and I'd weigh my logistics. Finally I came to the conclusion, I wasnt here to please people, I was here to share a platform of beautiful thinking with other individuals who thought the same. Anything other than that wasnt reason enough.
I have read you guys all this while, and it took a lotta patience everytime to not comment and then there were times when I just had to - blogger's blood you see, cant help it. Looking at the bigger picture from here,right now, seems like all this holding back doesnt really make any sense - more so, when you loved something truly for what it was and you were loved back for what you were.
I read Kashmira's post - "Happy Birthday" a few days back, she said about the blogdom : "The other amazing thing is how much more aware I am of the world around me. How much I myself have grown because of my interactions with you all." Now when I look at it in retrospect its so true ! I loved the company of all you beautiful people who opened up so many new avenues of thoughts to me, I loved speaking my mind to y'all, loved writing - the incoherent poetry - the foolish humor - or the politics and society, who cares if everybody doesnt happen to like it. I liked being here cz I connected. Only a fool would want to give it all away into nothingness that never had anything to give back. And I think I aint one.
I am gonna blog again I guess, cz I dont think I am done yet. Not yet.